Diggin deeper into my thoughts...Don't get lost in there

La de la. Live from study hall again I am going to attempt to write a poem based on how I feel at this moment. Here we go!

The room is still
Quiet as a whisper in the night (tee hee)
I stumble to my seat at the regular table.
I breath in a sigh of relief
as the peace begins to settle
The quiet
The absence of noise.
and I think, "this is good."

As I flip though my assorted books and loose papers,
A niceness comes about.
I realize then and there that
I do not
Have the privelege of doing any
Homework.

I silently cheer as I sit down at the computer
To send out my joy to others.

Now the memories of the week flow through my mind.
Like a racing train,

I remember being angry, upset, hurt, and exhausted.
I remember pouring out my soul to God
I remember all of the useless drama that I caused
and the peace leaves.

But I remember the smiles that I got,
The good things I did,
The amount of them, not in large quantity.

I lay down my head at night asking the same question.
Why am I here?

The question lingers with me everyday.
But I just store it until I have time to think.

Could this be just fixed by thinking thru?
Does this require an intervention?
No idea.

But for now I wait.
On God. On answers.
I wait and pray,
That He will lead the way
That I won't be lead astray (ok, enough rhymes)

Anyway (Darn)
That all there seems to be
For me to do.
Somehow, I will push thru
And the prize on the otherside of the door I choose
Will be greater
stronger
and true.

Yes I wait.
God, I wait for you.