questions?

So there is this really cool website that is pretty much people leave you questions and you reply with a video response.

I made one only to watch the answers of my favorite bloggers, but now I realize I could totally make one and ask EVERYONE random questions.

I already have 2 followers, ones i don't know.

so ya. Savanna you should make one. it's so fun!

its called vyou.com!

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So I'm doing something productive today and actually working on my writing plan as I blog to you about doing my writing plan. MULTITASK!

Anyways, hi.

There are the days when I completely feel comfortable with no makeup on and my hair in a messy bun..

It's wierd. When I go to church, I try to look extra adorable, but when I go to school I don't want to put any effort into looking attractive at all.

Well not at all, or else I would just go in my pajamas (Santa pajamas that is).

It's a great fall back on people to care what other people think of them so much that everyday is a competitive fashion show to see who could look the most adult and stylish. (P.S. I can't walk in heels :) )

I think I may have already told you this, but as I read a seventeen magazine, I felt worse and worse and more worse about myself because:
a) I have no money
b) I have no cute clothes
c) I am a fatty

These lies. all planted deceptively from a magazine which I don't think was their intention (well maybe it was. Idk.) and I started believing them.

WHAT A WASTE!!

I get ready in half an hour in the morning and I am proud of it!!

So if you are obsessed about making yourself look pretty and it takes you 2 hours or more to get ready, here are some tips to break the lies over you.

1) Take a shower at night
2) Go through the day with you hair air dried. (aka not blow dried. just do nothing to it.)
3) When you look in the mirror in the morning say "I am beautiful" even you don't believe it
4) put on minimal makeup (aka concealer, one shade of eyeshadow, mascara)
etc..

People don't like fake people. You're amazing and beautiful just the way you are. And don't let anyone bring you down. God has made you special and he loves you.

manana <3

My memoirs.

HA!

I got past fifty blogs.

You know what I think about when I read this? It sounds all depressing and everything, but I write this not really to entertain, but...

at my funeral, these will be my memoirs or something.

I have to write down my thoughts somewhere. If I don't, what remnant will be of me on this earth if I left nothing to read.

Not saying I'm gonna die soon, so don't freak out savanna! :)

Anyways, I was on the worship team on Sunday (doing the synth) and they asked me to sing as I play.

.....

I can't sing. ahhahah. at least I don't think so. But I didn't know how hard it would be to play and sing at the same time.

It's like SUPER.

I couldn't hear myself in the monitor so I very well could've been singing completely off tune or something and I wouldn't have noticed.

I hope I don't become deaf. that would suck. Not downing any deaf people who would ever read my blog. I love you!

But ya, it was hard.

And thats all I have to say about that.

The person I want to be

"Forever is a long time, but I wouldn't mind spending it by your side."

Are there times when you seriously get really....lonely?
The moments when you feel no one really understands you, including yourself.

Ya. :l

So I'm a horrible actor. For me to act like everything's fine, I put on the over crazy side.

I don't really know who I am and what I'm supposed to do. I put myself before others a lot of the time. And I feel my biggest flaw is my mouth; it curses, it demolishes, it lies, it stings.

I'm sorry to have such a sad blog, but I feel like I can't put it anywhere else.

When will I learn? I pray and pray for help that, you know, God will change my heart.

But, it takes forever. It's painful, and it feels like sometimes I just won't make it.

I'm tired of feeling lonely and wallowing in self pity.

Why can't I be the person I want to be. Like Paul says, "I do the things I don't want to do, and I don't do the things I want to do."

I forget where that is, but it's there.

Why can't I be the person I want to be?

Debate or not debate

So today I had to do a group debate in History class. I thought I would be less nervous, but nope.

I had coffee in my stomach and not much food.

AGH!!

I was stuttering soooo bad, and I was like quaking (haha. we're learning about the quakers...they quaked...ya...ok...)

So ya, thats the update, now I'm going to study for the midterm tomorrow. Bye!

Being a girl...

I get very sensetive to people and things happening around me sometimes.

I get insanely nervous about everything and don't think before I say or do things.

I get really mad at myself because I know all my faults and shortcomings too well and feel like no one understands me.

God, I know you have a plan for me and that you love me even though I suck.
But I get so caught up in what I want to look like for the world's sake and not for your sake.

For a girl like me, I had to learn the hard way that peace does not come by my own will. I can't wish bad circumstances out of my head; I can't make anything right by just thinking about something else.

It's hard and useless work to do that, I now realize. The more I try, the more I fall.

The only way peace (the true kind, not the kind that you think you want when in reality all it will bring you is heartbreak and depression) can enter my life is if I COMPLETELY and TOTALLY surrender to my Jesus.

It's very hard. To just trust him for everyday things is probably harder than to go to him when I'm in desperate need.

But by going to him for literally EVERYTHING, I am now more closer to Him. I can talk to him without shame and know that he loves to listen to me and never tires of my prayers.

Try finding that in a guy. haha.

I don't want to rely on myself, for even the little things (because we all can see I'm sorta human), so why not trust in God to help me pass a final? Why not ask for peace and understanding when I sit down and study? Why not pray that I won't be late for school?

It's not laziness, its faith.

So even though I'm a worrywart and am human and am very sensetive at times, he's got my back.

yay!

Love ya!

Hilarious guy at the gym

You know me...

I'm the person that doesn't really judge people (out loud at least), but I'm sorry.

There was this guy at the gym today that almost made me drop my weights just looking at him.

He. was. pathetic.

He stood next to like the manly men lifting their manly weights as he just stretched in his Ole Miss sweatshirt that was two sizes too big for him.

I was with my friend Talia and we saw him and felt pity.

But then when we were doing weights, he went over to the ab machine and put the weights on its heaviest setting and STARTED GOING AT IT!!!

Serious as a pickle, this guy with glasses, pale skin, and scrawny body was lifting those weights like it was his purpose in life.

Me and my friend sorta freak out! We laughed so hard, but he couldn't see us so we were good. The look on his face only made me wonder what he was thinking.

His face was scrunched and his eyes bulging. I imagined him thinking this whole time "One day! One day soon! I'm gonna get a girlfriend! I'm gonna be buff! One day! Girls are gonna love me! Get a girlfriend! One day soon! Gonna get a girlfriend! Work harder! etc..."

I couldn't help but watch him. He kept at it for SO long!! I was dying by the looks on his face.

He probably stayed at that machine for a good five minutes never stopping. That's a loooooooong time!

So if you feel like you have no inspiration to work out, do what this guy did (so I believe. I'm no mindreader)

Think about the future and how buff your gonna be. and the future boyfriend/girlfriend your gonna have.

You'll be amazed at your own power