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Dont you just wish that you could take back something you said that you didn't event think about the repercussions of what you say could be deadly? Ya. thats where I am.
I don't mean to say that stuff, I just SAY IT!! STUPID STUPID. word of advice. take like five minutes before you say anything and think about what your going to say and how its going to effect anything.
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On second thought if we did that then conversations would last for 3 months. so don't take 5 minutes. thats a bit too long.
Ugh. pttttt.
So....kittens are doing well. adorable little smelly creatures from God, oh how I adore them!
But I think I talk about my babies way too much.. lets see....
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I'm really sad in a sense that I'm not known for anything. you know? I'm just average nobody. I played the piano good for a while but then I stopped for a while and I just can't seem to get it back. I've been so lazy lately. I'm not good at sports or amazing at art, being a Christian, or anything. I'm just. me. that gets REALLY annoying. And the INSANELY STUPID stuff that happens in my life that makes it hard to get back up from.
I wish that God would just appear to me in a vision, and it wouldn't be one of those visions that lasts 3 seconds, but like an hour, and he and me could talk and fix everything up. I've been so messed up with God for a while, its SO hard to act all happy and cheerful and GO GOD all the time when really I'm really doubtful and don't want to do anything.
......maybe this is prolly just my period talking. not that i'm on it. PMS? ugh is it wierd that women seem to be in a constant PMS mode? God didn't give guys TMS (Testosterone Malfunction Syndrome) or something. they stay the same. like "Duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh." thats all they say. all day. I wish I was like that some times. not have to say anything.
oooh I want to go home and be with my kitties.
Haley, even for me, even though I have something I know that I love to do, I'm never completely sure about myself. I'm not the best artist, I'm not even close. Everyone has insecurity, even in their talents.
ReplyDeleteAnd. You know I'm lazy too. XD
Even if your whole life was set out before you, that doesn't mean it'd be easy. :/ Life is hard. It's life. It's been hard, it'll be hard.
And the thing about Christianity... That's a whole nother story for me. I'm someone who doesn't talk much about that stuff. I know the facts, I know the trivia, but sometimes it feels like I don't know God. I've been afraid that someone's gonna judge me because of that, but then I think about it. Even in our group of friends, we're hurting, lost, confused. Why don't we talk about it? Why don't we work through it. Going for everything on your own... it's really sad. I realized it, but that doesn't mean anything is gonna change. Why is that...? I have no idea. :@ I mean, I don't think you guys would judge me, and I wouldn't judge you, no matter what you did, but it's still scary. So I work through things on my own. -_- Silly savanna.
RAWR. I'm pmsing actually. Can't you tell? >_>
Heres exactly the truth as how i see you, as a observer,
ReplyDeleteI see you as an incredibly sweet girl that has a genuine heart and cares about things alot. When I think of you I see an inspiration and an incredible representative of Christ. I look up to you in your relationship with God.
I agree with Savanna, we should talk about this!
I cant figure out what im doing wrong, but im not on fire for God and i REALLY REALLY wanna be, i love him and want to give my life over to him.
p.s.
when i think of you not even one bad adjective comes to my mind.thought you should know that.your a very good person. which is not average in the slightest.