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I have been searching for a job for a long time now, and still no avail. I know that in a recession, it's the hardest for youth to get jobs for lack of job experience.

But I feel like I have some! Ya know, helping out the school library and putting books away and going on youtube for hours at a time.....

Ya the last one is a killer. Who knew that this website would be the death to my time.

I especially am addicted to let's play video.

It is in all seriousness, you are watching someone play a video game. You don't see the person. All you see is the game and you are not even playing it.

It sounds insanely stupid, but I can't stop watching them.

They have made me become a hermit. :(

I need a life seriously or I might explode all over the walls.

I don't even know

So I'm sitting in the Puyallup Starbucks, drinking a new beverage I haven't tried before...a hazelnut mocha...and I'm just sitting thinking about life.

It's so easy to criticize myself on anything and extremely difficult to comment on my abilities as good.

Sometimes, I think that thinking really deep alot is a down fall. I'm always the party pooper and I feel like I don't belong anywhere.

But, I also like the fact that I think deeply.

It means that I care. :)

I don't make sense a lot, but it gives my mind a work out.

God blessed me with a wonky mind, but I know that one day it will come to good use.

JSB

I guess I should add another blog, eh?

Eh, ok.

So....prom....

It happened at my school like most schools, except my school is indeed Christian, so we called our "prom" the Junior Senior Banquet, AKA JSB. (Long sentence, I know)

So ya. The things that were different about it this year was

a) I could actually go, since I am a Junior

b) I, yes I, actually ASKED my date to go with me.

Yes. Somehow I managed to muster up some pretty darn amazing courage for me, oh so insecure me, to ask the guy I have had a crush on for quite some time to go to JSB with me.

Over Facebook. (Fail)

Hey, this is my first dance EVER that I have EVER gone to. I'm not used to this whole thing.

Anyways, he said yes, and so began the epic preparing for the special night. I got a pretty, flowy, red gown (I would say regal) and I literally practiced walking in heels for weeks because I have NEVER worn heels anywhere before that night.

Then came the night. I was so worried that it would be awkward in some way, like I couldn't find anything to say, there would be lots of awkward silences, he will have a horrible time being shy and not knowing anybody.

Surprisingly, for two socially awkward people, we did alright!

I actually had more fun just spending time talking with him. The guy is funny. We got to walk around (FYI, JSB was at a History Museum so they let us walk through the exhibits. Be jealous) and stare at stuff. It was awesome.

Then. Came. The. Pictures.

The guy taking the pics was like asking us to move as close as we could possibly get and at one point we actually had to make some body intact. He put his arm around me and I just leaned my head on my shoulder.

We just stood there, smiling, while the indignant photographer took our awkward picture.

At one point, I swore I heard my date snort through his smile. It let me know I wasn't the only one feeling awkward.

We didn't dance, because of lack of ability and the night ended with me getting lost multiple times trying to take him home. We stopped at my house and played card games with my family in our fancy attire. (In which he beat me. :( )

I then drove him home, walked him inside, and......

......nothing. said goodnight and drove off.

Ya not really the dramatic ending like you see in movies.

So I guess this was my first "date" if you want to call it that.

I just hope I get to do more of these in the future. He had fun. I had fun. The night was a success. :)

Sitting outside of class...

I think of all changes I've gone through, especially in the last year.

I am more confident in myself. I used to be shy and very introverted and felt socially awkward no matter WHO I was around. Now, I know how to keep my own in a conversation and can talk with people I usually don't talk to.

I'm more brave. I asked someone to a dance, (which I would NEVER have done a year ago) and I'm not top nervous.

I got a haircut.......

Ok thats not really deep or anything, but it is a change. (P.S. I got bangs)

Why am I so Down? {:(

I have indeed have felt the pangs of loneliness recently. I don't really see my friends very often and I just find myself wasting time doing nothing when I could be doing something productive.

Thats why I'm fat. I do nothing alot and get so lonely I sit with a box of cookies and just EAT THEM. EAT THEM ALL. KILL THE ANIMAL COOKIES!

But then I get more sad because I realize the animal cookies, even though broken and being digested in my stomach are still together with their friends in my stomach.

Curse you animal cookies!

Ever since I heard my Pastor Gordon speak on wisdom and all that it brings (peace, righteousness, riches, favor, happiness) I've been praying for wisdom like crazy.

Well not like crazy, but just more often than I did before.

Ugh. I am sorry if my blog is no longer interesting to read anymore.

Like I said earlier, its like my diary now.

And it does feel good to get it out somewhere.

How to make a paper heart (Good Luck)

I am a beast!! Muhahaha

Ya, I can't believe that I actually stuck to something for sixty posts.

Thats like a first.

Anyways. I would like to talk about Origami.

I know how to make a paper heart. I can teach you too!

1: Get a piece of Printer paper.

2: Grap the bottom of the paper and fold it so it's aligned with the right side, making a big fat triangle with a rectangle on it.

3: Cut off the rectangle (Even though that the rectangle REALLY wants to be a part of the heart, it has to go away. Sorry Rectangle)

4:Open up the paper, it is a square ( :) ) And then, hamburger fold it up and open it. Turn the paper 90 degrees and do the same thing, making a cross in the paper.

5: After opening the paper, fold the bottom edge to the middle crease and KEEP IT THERE

6: Turn the paper over and on both halves of the crease, fold the bottom edge to the middle crease, making two triangles

7: Turn the paper over again. There should be a little pocket on the bottom. :) Go up to the straight edge and fold that edge into the middle crease. Do it to both sides.

8: Take the top two corners of your...contraption and fold the top edges to the middle crease, making two more triangles

9: (Read the big letters) This one's tricky so read well. Take the whole top tip and bring it down to the bottom and DO NOT MAKE A CREASE. Just hold the tip down on the bottom tip, letting the middle stick up

10: So your going to have two little flappy things. Go inside the flappy things and make a crease on the crease inside, which folds the contraption in half, BUT the FLAPPY THINGS are still STICKING OUT.

11: The flappy's should look like little hoods (sort of.) Take the pointy parts in the middle of the "hoods) and fold the middle line onto the crease you made last step ago. (I'm sorry if this is confusing. I just really wanted to do this) This should make two more little triangles.

12: Now take the bottom point of the top half of the "contraption" and lift it up. Inside should be a pocket. Stick the top half and stick it in that pocket all the way til it is flat again.

13: Now go back to the very very top of your "contraption" and take the uppermost corners. The edges that you fold is only about one inch long. you take the little edges and fold them into the bottom-top edges of the little triangles that you made 2 steps ago.

ALMOST DONE

14: I you turn it over, it should practically look like a heart now, except the top points are pointy. So turn it back over and take the top pointy's and fold them down to the first horizontal crease you come to.

Then turn "your contraption" over and.....


WALLLLLLAAAAAAAA!!! It's a heart.

I doubt anyone understood my instructions, sorry about that. I hate it when I want to make something and I can't understand the instructions. So ya, if you just end up with a folded paper of some sort, GOOD JOB!!

It means you tried.

So this is to all the instruction-issued people out there (including me).

Here is just another set of instructions that you prolly won't get. lol Sorry. I just really wanted to do it

Yessss

So I just finished my Spanish class for this quarter and I feel MUY CONTENTA (very happy).

In fact I think I should write a poem on my feelings about it:

Oh Spanish class of mine
It was fun while it lasted
But now you are terminado
My brain is officially blasted

With you, there wasn't many issues
Culture spilling in mi cabeza
No need for crying or tissues
I love the language, yes(a)

So sad that it is over
I will see you again this spring
I'll take off the cover
And soon, I'll learn to sing (in Spanish that is)

Oh clase de espanol, oh clase de espanol
Quiero para tu, hasta cuando despiertas
Entiendo como decir "Hace mucho sol."
Y "Quiero que comas."

Fin.