I have issues

Don't we all.

I am the one with the issues of judgement. Whenever I walk into my high school, I fell like I can't really be who I am, because no one will give me a chance to show them who I really am.

I hate cliques. With a fiery passion.

All they do is hurt, kill, and DESTROY.

But who am I to say. I enjoy my times in my little gatherings of friends as well

Oh Geeze.

Why can't God communicate with us a little better.

I wish I knew what to do, what to say, what to believe. It's so hard sometimes to just get through the day without him.

I have no fancy schmancy words to explain my relationship with him. Point is, He saved me when I was in desperate need of a Savior.

His life is the only life I (try) to live for.

I want to believe fully in His saving grace and that he see's and know's everything and that he will give me wisdom if I ask in faith.

Oh the melancholy that I slump myself into.

All I can do is just....breathe.

And that is so unsettling to me.

The Quarter's almost over!!

Hallelujah!

This quarter has been DEATH!

But I still think that Running Start is the best. You just got to work hard and DO NOT procrastinate. (I'm talking to you, Savanna)

But ya, I feel like falling asleep. Darn you Day light savings!

So much craziness

So ya, recently there has been a major earthquake in Japan along with huge tsunamis and nuclear plants exploding.

Usually things like this that happen don't affect me very much. Like when Haiti was struck, I didn't take it really bad.

But it is COMPLETELY different now.

I have made good friends with three awesome Japanese girls: Haruka, Akiko, and Natsumi.

They are all the sweetest people I have ever met, and they all have amazing qualities to them that make them different.

Over the last couple months as I got to know them, I really bonded with them.

And when I heard about Japan, I couldn't believe it. I thought about all their families and how they were doing.

I thought about what it would be like if I was away from home and I heard that a major earthquake hit my hometown.

So, as a present for them and as a gift to remember me by when they go back, I'm making them all hats. One purple, one brown, and one yellow. (I love the yellow one btw)

If you guys ever read this, Natsumi, Akiko, or Haruka, I love you guys and am constantly praying for ya. God is in control and I hope you get to know him more each day. :)

Day of Rest...or agony

So I've noticed that I have been spending WAY too much time on my laptop and all the different social networks: facebook, vyou, youtube, SOLITAIRE.

It is literally pushing me away from my one true need in life and that is God.

I've become so raptured in thinking "Oh, I wonder if anyone has asked me a question on vyou." and "Oh, I wonder who's on facebook."

So today, I promised God that I would dedicate my whole day to just Him. No vyou, no facebook, no youtube, and yes...no solitaire.

Even as I sit here studying spanish, I can't help thinking, "Oh why don't you just check your facebook. Just check to see if anyone has asked you questions..."

GAHH!!! LALALALALA I CAN'T HEAR YOU!!! THIS IS GOD'S DAY!!

It's so hard, and so easy to just give in. But what helps me remember to stay on track is that the more I'm with God the happier and better I do in life. I get nothing done when I'm focused on the social things in life. He makes me happy and He lights my path.

I'm all together a better person when I put all the junk behind me.

Besides, I know that I should rejoice when troubles and temptations are hitting me hard. Sounds SOO cheesy, but I believe it. It strengthens my character, and my character strengthens my hope in salvation.

He alone saves.
He alone is the answer to the world's problems.

So God this day and all the rest are for you. I'm going to fight to keep you in my life.

:)

I see a doggie

right in front of me actually. he's so cute!! or she. its a helper dog and its wearing a pink vest so it could be a girl. anyways, it makes me want to cuddle with a puppy.

So ya, I'm at my college right now, waiting for 45 more minutes til I have to go to the Writing Center to turn in a paper.

This paper has caused me so many issues.

I hate papers.

I used to like them, but this one has planted a boiling hatred inside me so deep for papers that if I never laid eyes on one ever again, I would be as happy as that sleeping dog I'm looking at right now.

Research papers (that's what this one is) are the most worst of all.

I can't put my own ideas or anything of my own. It's all based on other people's research.

They say "no plagerizing" but isn't that what a research paper's all about? Everything that we write we have to prove and cite from another source, no assumptions or opinions allowed.

Ugh. So ya. Don't ever expect me to write a research paper happily because I will mentally spit you and the paper in the face.

I hate papers.

I wish I was that dog. He/she doesn't have to write papers

questions?

So there is this really cool website that is pretty much people leave you questions and you reply with a video response.

I made one only to watch the answers of my favorite bloggers, but now I realize I could totally make one and ask EVERYONE random questions.

I already have 2 followers, ones i don't know.

so ya. Savanna you should make one. it's so fun!

its called vyou.com!

Check ir

So I'm doing something productive today and actually working on my writing plan as I blog to you about doing my writing plan. MULTITASK!

Anyways, hi.

There are the days when I completely feel comfortable with no makeup on and my hair in a messy bun..

It's wierd. When I go to church, I try to look extra adorable, but when I go to school I don't want to put any effort into looking attractive at all.

Well not at all, or else I would just go in my pajamas (Santa pajamas that is).

It's a great fall back on people to care what other people think of them so much that everyday is a competitive fashion show to see who could look the most adult and stylish. (P.S. I can't walk in heels :) )

I think I may have already told you this, but as I read a seventeen magazine, I felt worse and worse and more worse about myself because:
a) I have no money
b) I have no cute clothes
c) I am a fatty

These lies. all planted deceptively from a magazine which I don't think was their intention (well maybe it was. Idk.) and I started believing them.

WHAT A WASTE!!

I get ready in half an hour in the morning and I am proud of it!!

So if you are obsessed about making yourself look pretty and it takes you 2 hours or more to get ready, here are some tips to break the lies over you.

1) Take a shower at night
2) Go through the day with you hair air dried. (aka not blow dried. just do nothing to it.)
3) When you look in the mirror in the morning say "I am beautiful" even you don't believe it
4) put on minimal makeup (aka concealer, one shade of eyeshadow, mascara)
etc..

People don't like fake people. You're amazing and beautiful just the way you are. And don't let anyone bring you down. God has made you special and he loves you.

manana <3